A little less stress…

“Remember, you cannot undo what’s already been done, so don’t waste energy questioning the past. Instead, focus on navigating your way out of the current instability so you can get back on schedule.”

Sometimes horoscopes tell you exactly what you need to hear.

I am thankful for the present.

For a once in a lifetime chance of meeting so many interesting and diverse people.

I am thankful for money, it brought me here.

I am thankful for technology for making it easier to be away from home and the ones I love.

I am thankful for her. Even if she be not mine, she still is the comfort, the softness, and the sweetness that life offers me once every never after.

Let’s just drop the past and its burdens, let’s just drop it. I cannot carry its heavy weight and its guilt around with me. I don’t want to crawl under it’s mass. Let’s just drop it, and not base future decisions on it. All I can say is I’m sorry, and all I can do is believe that for me there will be forgiveness. I’m hopeful Allah will forgive me.. But I am tired of the guilt. So I’d rather be hopeful than guilty, and just move onwards.

I never got this guilt with girls. So, call me sick if you must.

Hmmm

I’m not so happy…

What to do…?

Oct 24th

No one should support a money-thirsty, ethically bankrupt war.

http://www.stopwar.org.uk/

Boohoo

At first glance at the 7 KD per meedalya email, I thought it’s a rather cool thing to have.

At second glance… Well.. 3ashan le a7ad bag mefta7ik ydil elsayara bedoon ta3ab.

Yep.

I am

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D is for aDorable

I admit, it has been a looooong time since a boy made Cruxine blush, man.

So I have this class, a redo basically of something I sucked at last year and hated.. This one is not graded though so the pressure is offff! So I’m just going to kick back and enjoy it this time.

The other reason I am enjoying it is, well, the lab assistant is such a nice guy! He’s so friendly and even though some of his jokes are lame, but he knows how to hold a crowds attention… He know what he’s talking about, he’s young, and he’s been around the “real world” of what we are doing which is a big hush hush in order to keep my identity anonymous.

So he’s this tall multi-cultural guy.. Coolest ever.. Curly haired, stubbled face, and really cool GRRRR voice.

Anyway, he just patted me on the shoulder for doing a good job and I went “hnnnn”.

Just melted like butter.

Repeat after me: taken, taken, taken….

Phone Tree

I love this, it’s so good.. So lesbian.. Haha

A better fantasy

Ok, I know that my gaydar has been broken, off, and shattered since high school.. But, this new Final Fantasy character, Lightening, I’m already in love with her.. hehe I’m sensing a strong lesbian vibe here, people!!

Come on, doesn’t she look like a dyke to you? *sigh* So sexeh!

If she’s not one in the game, then she’s totally in the closet, I tell you.

Oh, but more seriously.. It almost feels like I am the only one psyched for the new final fantasy.. Am I really that old? I’m not about to stop playing games anytime soon, alright?

FINE

Ok.. Fine.. I confess.. Crux needs to lose weight.

There. I said it. Now fuck off.

I’m sick of vampires

For me it started with Twilight, which would have been brilliant if I was say… 15.. and still believed in romance between a girl and a guy! (Men are too sexually driven for romance, sorry).

Then a friend (grrrrr) recomended True Blood... Which was so lame and cheesy and yet I still got hooked on the mysteries and watched both season one and two.. By the middle of season 2 I decided to stop watching it but then came Jessica… And oh my my my…

“It’s not my fault my fangs come out when I’m turned on!”

HAWT!

Watching True Blood, I figured.. Wait a second! There’s so much about it that’s similar to Twilight! I looked both authors up and guess what?! True Blood’s first novel was released in 2001, while Twilight was released in 2005! Soooo… As cheesy as The Southern Vampire Mysteries may be… They’re not the copycat!

I always knew that woman could not write shit! I mean, talk about lame! All through the book she kept repeating herself.. And there’s not a single page where she doesn’t say oh how beautiful Edward Cullen is! We get it you stupid boy-loving pedophile!

Finally… Today I stumbled across yet another vampire show, based on yet another stupid cheesy book.. That’s The Vampire Diaries, which ALSO had so much (too much) in common with both Twilight and True Blood… But was published in 1991.. So we have a WINNER!

The winner, however, is such a bad show.. Why? Well the actors and actresses are obviously 20+ and they look awfully misplaced on high school desks and between lockers.. It just doesn’t fit! With disregard to this, they also can’t act!

And what’s with the damsel in distress senario all over?

Why can’t the main character be a WOMAN vampire.. And the guy be in danger for a good change?!?

I leave you with yet another photo of Jessica to dwell on the thought. :p